Hi guys, this is me in the photo above on my first week in Melbourne in Australia, don't I look happy! Sorry! back to my point, I'm essentially here because I've had a bit of a rough time lately, I'm not going to lie - things are at a loose end here, when a month ago everything, and I mean everything just made sense. So where do I begin, I know I know very little of you all but I have been watching and reading your posts - I don't want to sound like I'm revelling in your misfortune but I am so relieved to know you're struggling as well, and to just know I am not alone.
I'll begin with a little description of me, and where I'm from - I'm 20 and from Southend-on-sea, it's nice but there are few reasons that I could give to fault it, put it this way - all the rumours you've heard about it, are true. So I go to Reading University, but somehow I was given this opportunity to study abroad in Melbourne - funny I've told this story more than I've had school dinners (and i really really liked school dinners as a young'un!) and every single time I tell it differently. Well to you guys, I will be brutally honest, I was a con, I lived in someone else's shoes, I woke up and I was in someone else's world, I was upside down and inside out, I was different and everything else was different - I was seeing the world whilst in the middle of my degree in rusty old Reading. It was the single most strangest feeling waking up in a bed that wasn't my own, but that feeling...you know that feeling? It's left me now, it's literally disappeared. I've changed, I have, and nothing has here - basically I'm here, because home just isn't home anymore.
Please help.
Lonely and confused,
- O
Hello Olivia!
ReplyDeleteYou do look radient in your photo - the glow of travel, I know it well. Knew it well. I look in the mirror and see my grey skin, my wrinkly eyebags, my lifeless eyes. I left a part of me in Canada. I think it was the best part.
I hope this blog is a place where we can both try and find that part of ourselves again.
I love the passion with which you speak about Melbourne, I can really feel it.
Don't you think, everything felt just plain BETTER abroad?? Like, just walking to the supermarket in Canada felt good, Because I Was In Canada.
Louise, Hi! Can you relate? I feel returning to England has taken it's toll on our vulnerable selves. I did! I felt, and still do feel so passionate about it all, I look forward to hearing about your experiences? What was your best memory?
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